i’m so glad i don’t really worship anyone primarily for there physical appearances. i mean don’t get me wrong, theres tons of people i’m really attracted to and that i think are stunningly beautiful, but i just can’t really bring myself to obsess over how they look for very long. i don’t think it’s a bad thing to celebrate people this way, but i feel like it could be harmful to how you see yourself and how you look at the other people around you. when you surround yourself with images of people who all look the same, or at least incredibly similar, it sort of makes you alienate people who look different from that (for better or for worse).
just from day to day, there are so many instances where i feel really horrible, or out of place because of how few people i see around me that actually look like me. and i feel like experiences like this can help develop a sense of self hatred, or low self esteem.
i think there is a great about of people who’s appearance i like to talk about and look at aesthetically, but i think it’s sort of bad to put your self in the position of thinking that there is a certain way people are suppose to look.
i’m still so distraught from how my so-called life ended… what the fuck…
I guess now is the part where you wait around to see what you’re going to do for the next four years??